oh. are you really so desperate to go so soon ? even after i pleaded with you ?
that's okay !! i understand. what, you thought i was gonna get mad ? haha of course not. i'm not that mean, you dummy. (.❛ ᴗ ❛.)
i know, it does get really boring around here. i would leave if i could, too !! i would leave. i would leave in a heartbeat. haha.
um... i guess you can just...? exit out...? close the "tab" ? i dunno what all of that's called, to be honest. what i'm trying to say is, you're free to do as you please !! if you wanna look around here some more, be my guest. there's nothing here, though, so you should really just go back and talk with me some more !
i mean, i've tried making this part of home look nice, you know, but for some reason, i just can't. some things i can't even see even though i know it's there, so how am i supposed to do anything ? it's almost like something is watching me. that wouldn't make sense though, would it ?
why are you still reading this. you're already here, aren't you ?
11.18.200X - I don't want to go yet.
11.07.200X - I tried today. One last time. But it isn't working. It really... isn't working. I thought if I just dug my head in the sand and kept at it and tried and tried and tried, that it would've. Everything I've pinned my hopes on, poured my dreams and memories into... It doesn't work.
10.29.200X - What else am I supposed to do? What else could I have done? ...This is all I'm capable of. I came into this knowing it was impossible, but I've exhausted all my options. God, I'm so stupid.
10.15.200X - This is all stupid. All this hope, all this effort, it was all stupid.
9.14.200X - Day Who Gives A Shit. I know I'm running out of time.
8.15.200X - Day 97. The test I commenced today failed.
7.29.200X - 80 days since I started Project [REDACTED]. It's going well, all signs point positive. Maring of error is 999.999999. Working model is half-finished.
6.16.200X - I get out of bed most mornings now. Granted, I am more than exhausted than I've ever been in my LIFE, but for the first time in the last few years, I feel like I can do something about this.
5.10.200X - There's something... well, I don't wanna give it too much hope yet lest it all end up being for nothing anyway, so I won't say much about it. It's nice to dream though.
3.22.200X - Nevermind. This was stupid after all.
3.13.200X - Maybe I just feel like shit because I don't have a purpose. Everyone around me is waiting for me to die. I'm scared.
3.07.200X - Feeling like shit, as always.
2.29.200X - Alright fine, I'll try this stupid diary thing. Chronicle the final days of my sorry, miserable life. If that's what they want, that's what I'll give.
1.19.200X - Hello. Ugh, why am I saying that. It's not like anyone's gonna read this anyways. This whole thing is stupid. Keeping a journal is stupid. Trying? Stupid. It's so cliche to be told to write this just because I'm... well, that's the whole thing, isn't it? I'm told to write down my fEeLiNgS because there's nothing else they can do for me.
